So this post won't actually post for months to come, but I thought it was important to really document everything that is going on right now. I didn't do so well with my pregnancy with Jonah, but I vowed that this one would be different!
1 week ago today I just didn't feel right and started to really think ... "could I be pregnant" ...as most of you know that read this blog, fertility issues are no stranger to our household. I had IUI to conceive Belli and Jonah, although we didn't formally do the IUI, I had started everything to prepare for it (testing, labs, etc.). Both pregnancies I struggled with progesterone and needed to do injections....blaa blaa blaa. Anyway, so back to "could I be pregnant"....I went to CVS and got a test...secretly purchased and taken because my family and husband would seriously crap their pants big time! me....I had just one emotion ---- SCARED! Scared that it might be positive, scared that it might never be positive again....I don't know. I was all over the place.
Anyway, so I took the test. Now, for someone that has seen WAY TOO many negative pregnancy tests, although it was not a screaming positive, I knew something just wasn't right (or negative) about the test outcome. Anyway, I decided to call the doctor and get a "real" test.
And here is where the roller coaster ride starts.....
I went in on Tues. Sept 6th and got labs work only done. Because of my history with progesterone, if I was pregnant I need to start supplements stat. Anyway, so I got a call a few hours later...okay, so maybe I called them because it had been 4.5 hours and the results were supposed to be in 4 hours later...but whatever, :)
Anyway, I called and spoke with one of the nurses at Dr. A's (doctor that delivered Jonah). Jan said that my results were a "mixed bag" ummm....what the hell does that mean?
She said that my levels were really low (HCG 44 and progesterone 16) for the date of my last period and she wants sure that I had a viable pregnancy or if this was an "old pregnancy" that hasn't completely removed itself from my uterus. Fun....can't wait for this conversation to end. Anyway, she said that she wanted me to come in a few days later to check the levels again. (the HCG should double if not triple). She also started me on promitrium (oral progesterone) just in case. I went in on Thursday and to my surprise the levels came in better. HCG 145 and progesterone 39! she said she wanted to see me again and wanted me to come in on Monday (yesterday) to see what was going on.
So yesterday...what a mess. My appointment was at 3.30 with the nurse practitioner. Christian and I got there at 3.20 (and our wait started). 1.5 hours later....the NP came in. Really 1.5 our to see an NP? That is crazy. Anyway, we she did a general pap and then we went in for an ultrasound.
At this point it was late....I'm sure the NP wanted to go home as she too had a very long day. She started the u/s and was like...."um...I don't know, let's see....ummm, it's so early...I don't really see anything....maybe that is it....yeah looks like a sac....how high were your levels?"
At this point what was going through my head..."are you F'in serious! isn't it your job to know what the hell is going on? what are my levels? did you ready the f*cking chart? is this really happening.....AGGGGG!!!!"
Basically the appointment ended with me re hashing my entire fertility story to her...meanwhile she let it go through one ear and out the other....I told her about my weekly monitoring (not necessarily for an u/s but a least lab work for my progesterone!).....she yes'd me to death and said..."go schedule your appointment for 2 weeks from today"
STOP! did you not hear what I was saying? seriously? I HATE DOCTORS! at least sometimes. :)
Anyway, after much deliberation, I decided to call Dr. Werlin to see what his thoughts were. Am I okay to stay and just ask for a standing lab order...or do I need to go home...I mean back to doc Werlin. I called his office at 7.15 this morning and Sandy answered the phone. Told her who I was and her immediate response..." Hey Claudia, how are the kiddos?" Why can't all doctors be like this? My appointment is at 7am and I am back in the car at 7.15?
So therein lies my dilemma. Do I stay or do I go back? ...
9.13.2011
Got a call from Werlin's office and he is so kind! I just love love love him. Anyway, he did say that we needed to have a standing order to get progesterone tested on a weekly basis. He had all the faith in the world in Dr. A's office (and for the record Christian and I do too....it's the NP that we question). Anyway....so Dr. A we stay....
9.14.2011
More results! So now that my arm looks like I have picked up a mean heroin addiction...seriously after 4 blood draws in a few days my poor arm can't take it anymore....moving on...Jan called me this morning. from Dr. A's office. Different NP than Monday's debacle.
HCG: 1595 (in line with 5/6 weeks pregnant)
Progesterone: 20.8 (I don't like that at all, although she seemed to be cool with it...)
So even though my progesterone levels dropped off some, Dr. A wants me to continue the promitrium (spelling?) until we test again Monday. If they continue to drop, needles here we come. (Is it weird that I would just rather do injections? weird how your brain gets comfortable with what it knows....)
Until Monday!
Side note: how is someone that leaves your entire arm black and blue from a small blood draw still employed? what makes one good and one suck!?!?!?
9.19
Went in for my weekly blood draw...waiting really sucks. I can't believe I have only known about this pregnancy for about 14 days! Lord. It feels like I have carried around this little secret for months and months!
HCG: 16,000+ in line with 7 weeks! only 33 more weeks to go! lol
Progestorne: 65
Now we wait until next Monday when we get to see Dr. A and our little buddy we got growing in there...9.27
Yesterday was our standing blood draw day and first "real" doc appointment with Dr. A! Both HCG and Progesterone looked great (84k and 54)! Not to shabby!
On to the good part...the ultrasound (u/s)
It is always a little stressful for me to have an u/s, especially during the first few months when you can't feel the baby move at all. I have probably had 40 u/s during the last 2 pregnancies and the only 1 u/s I remember is the one from 9/10/2008 when we got the awful news that the baby stopped growing and the heartbeat had stopped. Weird how your brain refuses to let go of trama sometimes. Each time I look at the u/s monitor my eyes scan the screen for any sign of a flickering heartbeat...and it isn't until the doctor reassures me that the heartbeat and baby look great that I actually start to breathe again. I must say that although having u/s for me is sometimes dreadful, I was lucky enough to walk out of the doctors office with my first official picture of Spaulding #3~!
Baby looks great and everything seems to be on track!
New due date: May 15th 2012.
Another appointment in 2 weeks......I'll try to post (upload, since I won't really post this for another few months)....that picture of baby #3
Oct. 11, 2011
Went to the doctors yesterday and everything looks great! I got to hear #3's heartbeat and it was strong and steady....perfect perfect perfect! Baby is measuring great....9 weeks down....31 to go! holy crapola...this is already the longest pg ever!
I have already gained 5 lbs which sucks but I am dizzy all day long if I don't eat every 2 hours. And I am not wanting anything but CARBS! it is pretty much a mess. Oh well...health and happiness to this bambino!
in 2 more weeks we go in again to see Dr. A ...and get close to the end of this dreadful 12 week wait! Also, we do the high risk u/s on week 12 so that is always fun.....
Nov. 22, 2011So it is the day! We are having a baby....obviously! lol
More importantly, looks like #3 is a .......................... BOY!!!! God help us all!
Scans of u/s coming soon!
Oh, and for the record, being pregnant 3 times in 4 years ....well I basically look like I am already 6 months along....anyway, here is to 16 weeks!
