Hello everyone Gossip Girl here...
Seen in the bathroom at Nationpoint, Claudia, losing her lunch! Is she pregnant? is it the latest diet fad....Only gossip girl knows.
okay okay...just kidding...I do love that show, and it's on tonight~ yes!
Anyway, so for the last few weeks I have been finding myself, well, nauseous, swore, dizzy, lightheaded, constipated (sorry, I know TMI, but for those that are regular and wanna get pregnant, say go bye to that!), broken out (like 13 year old bad), bloated, and oh, TIRED! like go to bed at 7 pm wake up at 7 am and still need a 3 hour nap!).
Please don't get me wrong. I am not complaining...just documenting the true beauties of being pregnant. And worse off, you can't tell anyone why you look like poo! And remember, I prayed to feel like this, now I understand why Nicole thought I was nuts!
So here is my typical day:
I wake up around 6 am...take a shower, gag a few times since brushing my teeth appears to trigger some major gag reflexes, dry off and I then cover my body in oils and creams to do my share in avoiding stretch marks (I am going to get them, my mom had them, so I am screwed...but whatever...sorry Christian but plastic surgery will be my friend!) After that, I have to run down stairs and eat something small in order to not spend 10 minutes praying to the porcelain gods...then off to work.
No more coffee for me either, not that I am against some decaf or even a small amount of regular coffee, but I just can't stand that taste. (and I loved coffee before). I get to work and I am okay until about 9.30...then I am all of a sudden on this big boat in the middle of the Atlantic! So I again, stuff my face to make the nausea goes away. Repeat steps 1 and 2 at 12pm and 3pm. See where I am going here...basically I eat and sleep! That's it.
Oh and I am not working out at all because I have been told I can't. So when someone tells me I should gain 25-30 pounds, I have no problem laughing in their face! Right. At this rate, Ill be in maternity jeans in 2 weeks! lol. Just kidding, don't worry Brandi I won't wear them yet...Ill have the fat closet I can still resort too, so I am in good shape.
By the time I get home, I'm toast! I take my shot, eat some dinner, and try my hardest to stay awake until at least 8pm. I know Christian was excited at first, he had total control of the TV remote...but now I'm thinking he misses his wife. Oh, speaking of almost 8...got to go get ready for bed, sorry for the maddness...bye for now
Gossip Girl XOXO
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Can you believe it! Turtle has grown so much since last week. Every doctors appointment we have been bringing in a VHS tape with us and Dr Werlin has been video taping turtles development and turtle actually moved on screen! It was crazy.
We got to see the heartbeat and the spinal cord. (I kinda shuttered at the site of the spinal cord...I'm I gonna be able to do the turkey baster bugger sucker...OMG...I seriously have fears!..another time) Anyway, I can't wait to put that video on a CD and upload it. On another positive note, my progesterone is still going up...now it came in at 46! Yeah!
We got to see the heartbeat and the spinal cord. (I kinda shuttered at the site of the spinal cord...I'm I gonna be able to do the turkey baster bugger sucker...OMG...I seriously have fears!..another time) Anyway, I can't wait to put that video on a CD and upload it. On another positive note, my progesterone is still going up...now it came in at 46! Yeah!
Friday, November 23, 2007
What's going on this week?
Week 8
Your baby has a face! Your baby's features are becoming more obvious, as his lips, tongue and nostrils, as well as the buds for 20 baby teeth are already present. The back muscles are growing along the spinal column, and his or her reproductive organs have started to form and soon will become either testes or ovaries. The arms and legs are growing and elbows and knees appear as well. The fingers and toes are starting to show but are still webbed. Your baby is about 8 - 11 mm or 0.31 - 0.43 inches in length. The process of ossification (hardening of the bones) begins as the bones of the fingers and toes have already reached the first joint.
Your baby is already getting smarter as his brain continues to develop and grow. (well turtle be a doctor, a lawyer, ??) Your baby is starting to show signs of reflex activity - an automatic response to certain types of stimuli Connecting you and your baby, the umbilical cord with all its blood vessels, is starting to function.
In fact, what will be your baby's intestine is forming in the umbilical cord as well. An ultrasound done this week would show your baby's fluttering heart and reflex movements.
This time next year your baby will be 20 Weeks Old!
Your baby has a face! Your baby's features are becoming more obvious, as his lips, tongue and nostrils, as well as the buds for 20 baby teeth are already present. The back muscles are growing along the spinal column, and his or her reproductive organs have started to form and soon will become either testes or ovaries. The arms and legs are growing and elbows and knees appear as well. The fingers and toes are starting to show but are still webbed. Your baby is about 8 - 11 mm or 0.31 - 0.43 inches in length. The process of ossification (hardening of the bones) begins as the bones of the fingers and toes have already reached the first joint.
Your baby is already getting smarter as his brain continues to develop and grow. (well turtle be a doctor, a lawyer, ??) Your baby is starting to show signs of reflex activity - an automatic response to certain types of stimuli Connecting you and your baby, the umbilical cord with all its blood vessels, is starting to function.
In fact, what will be your baby's intestine is forming in the umbilical cord as well. An ultrasound done this week would show your baby's fluttering heart and reflex movements.
This time next year your baby will be 20 Weeks Old!
My First Meltdown!
Okay, so lately I haven't been feeling like myself. During the day I fight bouts of sickness and nausea but work allows me to no think about it which I think helps. I am tired most of all the day but sleeping early has helped that. I know what some of my friends are thinking, I normally go to bed at 9.30pm so how much earlier can I go to sleep, well I must say I haven't made it to 8 some nights!
Anyway, yesterday (Thanksgiving) we spent the day with our families...kinda. We are still pulling double duty for Thanksgiving, so in the morning we made our way to my parents house. We started with a nice brunch and then everyone sat down and talked (I fell asleep). I basically slept through 90% of Thanksgiving with my parents. Sorry guys! Later that afternoon, after my 3 hour nap, we went to Christian's parents. The entire family was there so it was nice to see all his brothers and the kids. Baby Christian (his older brothers youngest son) is so adorable, and it might be the cutest thing when my Christian plays with him. Christian has never been hands on with kids (does that make sense??) anyway, lately he seems to have this fatherly instinct to himself. It is amazing to see. Anyway, so we ate traditional thanksgiving dinner (I didn't, I ate stuffing and mashed potatoes, kinda scared to eat the other stuff, again, I haven't been feeling like myself).
We came home, I went to sleep and then at about 2.30 it was over! I felt like I just got off the tea cups at Disneyland! I ran to that bathroom and had my first experience with "full" morning sickness! Holy cow! I must say, my friend warned me that she hasn't slept the same since she had her son, I think turtle is already trying to prepare me for sleep deprivation! My morning sickness should be labeled nighttime sickness because that is when I struggle the most.
Anyway, yesterday (Thanksgiving) we spent the day with our families...kinda. We are still pulling double duty for Thanksgiving, so in the morning we made our way to my parents house. We started with a nice brunch and then everyone sat down and talked (I fell asleep). I basically slept through 90% of Thanksgiving with my parents. Sorry guys! Later that afternoon, after my 3 hour nap, we went to Christian's parents. The entire family was there so it was nice to see all his brothers and the kids. Baby Christian (his older brothers youngest son) is so adorable, and it might be the cutest thing when my Christian plays with him. Christian has never been hands on with kids (does that make sense??) anyway, lately he seems to have this fatherly instinct to himself. It is amazing to see. Anyway, so we ate traditional thanksgiving dinner (I didn't, I ate stuffing and mashed potatoes, kinda scared to eat the other stuff, again, I haven't been feeling like myself).
We came home, I went to sleep and then at about 2.30 it was over! I felt like I just got off the tea cups at Disneyland! I ran to that bathroom and had my first experience with "full" morning sickness! Holy cow! I must say, my friend warned me that she hasn't slept the same since she had her son, I think turtle is already trying to prepare me for sleep deprivation! My morning sickness should be labeled nighttime sickness because that is when I struggle the most.
Update
So we went in on Wed for our weekly ultrasound and everything looked good. Turtle has grown double its size since the last ultrasound. My progesterone levels stayed at 36, which is were I have wanted them to stay so no complaints here!
I am not posting this weeks ultrasound, to be honest, we didn't really get a good shot and next week Dr. Werlin said we should seem arms and legs! I can't wait. Until then...
I am not posting this weeks ultrasound, to be honest, we didn't really get a good shot and next week Dr. Werlin said we should seem arms and legs! I can't wait. Until then...
Monday, November 19, 2007
Okay, I'm a terd!
So today I got some interesting news. I went in to work and my assistant Brianna said, "oh dummy, you know when you post a comment on someones blog they can click your name and it gets routed to your blog!"
All I could think was OMG! ("oh my god" for those new to blogging/IM, mother) I couldn't get my friend Nicole on the phone fast enough to remove the comment asap. Although a few people must have caught on and found out our little secret, I did want to tell them all in a different way.
So here is my public apology for all those close friends of mine that found out I was pregnant by reading this blog and not by me. I was going to tell all of you, in time, a mean really my protruding stomach would have also given it away, but you are all so important to me, I wish I would have told you instead of you having to read it. So again, my bad. :)
It will be public in no time...just 5 more weeks.
All I could think was OMG! ("oh my god" for those new to blogging/IM, mother) I couldn't get my friend Nicole on the phone fast enough to remove the comment asap. Although a few people must have caught on and found out our little secret, I did want to tell them all in a different way.
So here is my public apology for all those close friends of mine that found out I was pregnant by reading this blog and not by me. I was going to tell all of you, in time, a mean really my protruding stomach would have also given it away, but you are all so important to me, I wish I would have told you instead of you having to read it. So again, my bad. :)
It will be public in no time...just 5 more weeks.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
A lot is happening this week...
WEEK 7:
This week your baby is undergoing some extraordinary changes and developments. The head, heart, spinal cord, and some of the larger blood vessels begin to form. As these blood vessels form, the heart begins to pump fluid through them, and your baby's first red blood cells are created.
Your baby is about 7 - 9 mm or 0.27 - 0.35 inches in length, (approximately the size of a grain of rice), and weighs about 1/30 of an ounce - less than a breath mint (OMG, and my jeans are already tight!) Your baby's brain, bladder, tongue and esophagus are all developing and transforming, while his eyes are moving to the front of the face and his tiny eyelids are forming. The bones of his tiny limbs have started to form and all of your baby's major organs - heart, intestines, kidneys, liver, lungs and pancreas -- are forming and growing.
In fact, your baby actually goes through 3 sets of kidneys during development with this week's development, being the second set. Both the hand plates and the genital tubercle are present this week, but you can't tell whether it's a boy or a girl by sight at this point (umm...).
Nasal pits are also forming. In your womb, your baby has already become active swimming around inside the amniotic sac and kicking. However, as he's much too small and well-cushioned by the uterus and the new amniotic fluid you won't be able to feel him yet. But don't worry. In a few months you'll be able to feel him constantly.
This week your baby is undergoing some extraordinary changes and developments. The head, heart, spinal cord, and some of the larger blood vessels begin to form. As these blood vessels form, the heart begins to pump fluid through them, and your baby's first red blood cells are created.
Your baby is about 7 - 9 mm or 0.27 - 0.35 inches in length, (approximately the size of a grain of rice), and weighs about 1/30 of an ounce - less than a breath mint (OMG, and my jeans are already tight!) Your baby's brain, bladder, tongue and esophagus are all developing and transforming, while his eyes are moving to the front of the face and his tiny eyelids are forming. The bones of his tiny limbs have started to form and all of your baby's major organs - heart, intestines, kidneys, liver, lungs and pancreas -- are forming and growing.
In fact, your baby actually goes through 3 sets of kidneys during development with this week's development, being the second set. Both the hand plates and the genital tubercle are present this week, but you can't tell whether it's a boy or a girl by sight at this point (umm...).
Nasal pits are also forming. In your womb, your baby has already become active swimming around inside the amniotic sac and kicking. However, as he's much too small and well-cushioned by the uterus and the new amniotic fluid you won't be able to feel him yet. But don't worry. In a few months you'll be able to feel him constantly.
Am I having a rubber ducky?
On Thursday, Christian and I went in for our weekly ultrasound. We went in and got the star treatment from Dr. Werlins office (like always, I will miss that place). Dr. Werlin said everything looked great with the baby, we were able to see the heart beat again and the baby was measuring in at 6 weeks 6 days (right on schedule!). To be honest, the ultrasound pictures of the baby resembled a rubber ducky more than a baby, but soon turtle will actually look human. lol
And the dreaded progesterone: Well the levels are up to a 34.6! Yes! I was so thrilled to see the injections are working.
And the dreaded progesterone: Well the levels are up to a 34.6! Yes! I was so thrilled to see the injections are working.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
So what's really going on in there?
Week Six
The arms and legs continue to develop - These limbs are stretching out more and more. Later on you will be feeling those feet and elbows up close and personal right in your bladder! Brain is growing well - Did you know that over the course of the remaining months that your baby's brain will develop over 100 billion neurons? This is just the beginning! Lenses of the eyes appear - If you could catch a glimpse inside, you would notice your baby's appearance becoming increasing like a newborn's. Nostrils are formed - The position of the nose seems to shift into its proper place as well. Soon, the nerves running from the nose to the brain appear. Intestines grow - Initially these are actually located outside the baby's body within the umbilical cord. Pancreas - Your baby is now equipped to deal with digestive enzymes and take on processing the insulin and glucagons the body needs to function.
The arms and legs continue to develop - These limbs are stretching out more and more. Later on you will be feeling those feet and elbows up close and personal right in your bladder! Brain is growing well - Did you know that over the course of the remaining months that your baby's brain will develop over 100 billion neurons? This is just the beginning! Lenses of the eyes appear - If you could catch a glimpse inside, you would notice your baby's appearance becoming increasing like a newborn's. Nostrils are formed - The position of the nose seems to shift into its proper place as well. Soon, the nerves running from the nose to the brain appear. Intestines grow - Initially these are actually located outside the baby's body within the umbilical cord. Pancreas - Your baby is now equipped to deal with digestive enzymes and take on processing the insulin and glucagons the body needs to function.
Progesterone Update!
okay, so let me fill you in. Yesterday I went in for my sanity blood test. I'm pretty sure my Dr. thinks I am a little nuts, but I think I blend in well with the other fertility crazies! Anyway, Dr. Werlin called at around noon and said he was pleased at the levels and that there were up to a 24. I asked him if he expected them to go up more than that (honestly, I expected them to go up more than 5 mls or whatever) but he said that the levels looked great and that he would see me on Thurs. I asked him if I should increase the cc's that I am taking, and he responded with "what for, it looks good" so I guess 1 cc it is.
The one thing I never really thought about was that on the oral medication I was on 400 mg per day, now I am taking 1cc which equals 50mg, a heck of a lot less. So I guess they are only giving me a little progesterone.
Anyway, so all is good for now. I do feel like poo most of the day. Kinda like that hang over that just won't go away. But to be honest, I invite the sickness. Rumor has it, the miscarriage rate is lower if you have morning sickness, but who is thinking about that. :)
The one thing I never really thought about was that on the oral medication I was on 400 mg per day, now I am taking 1cc which equals 50mg, a heck of a lot less. So I guess they are only giving me a little progesterone.
Anyway, so all is good for now. I do feel like poo most of the day. Kinda like that hang over that just won't go away. But to be honest, I invite the sickness. Rumor has it, the miscarriage rate is lower if you have morning sickness, but who is thinking about that. :)
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Trying to stay positive, but failing miserably
This afternoon was nice relaxing. I went to the spa with my mom and we got facials. It was really nice to spend some one on one time with her. I felt refreshed and glowing. See what a 100 dollars could buy you! lol...we went shopping for unneeded Christmas decorations, it was nice...but now, well now I am just nervous about all of this.
I am trying to stay positive but I must admit, every little twinge, ache, cramp is over analyzed. I just want to prepare myself for what may come. I guess I just have never wanted something to work out so bad. I mean, at least not something so meaningful and something I want to give to others equally. I guess it is just hard sometimes to look at Christian and think I may never be able to do this for us. My body just isn't strong enough without some divine intervention. Or, even my parents. Never being able to give them the ability to be grandparents. It just feels like a lot of pressure. And ultimately, it is out of my hands. I am praying a lot and hope that god is on our side with this.
Sorry, for the depressing post, I'm a little out of sorts. Hopefully tomorrow my progesterone level check will get me back to thinking I can do this! Until then...
I am trying to stay positive but I must admit, every little twinge, ache, cramp is over analyzed. I just want to prepare myself for what may come. I guess I just have never wanted something to work out so bad. I mean, at least not something so meaningful and something I want to give to others equally. I guess it is just hard sometimes to look at Christian and think I may never be able to do this for us. My body just isn't strong enough without some divine intervention. Or, even my parents. Never being able to give them the ability to be grandparents. It just feels like a lot of pressure. And ultimately, it is out of my hands. I am praying a lot and hope that god is on our side with this.
Sorry, for the depressing post, I'm a little out of sorts. Hopefully tomorrow my progesterone level check will get me back to thinking I can do this! Until then...
Friday, November 9, 2007
The Enemy!
I came home from work this evening and there was a package at my door. I was a little excited, I mean, I really don't remember buying anything online, but maybe it was in back order and this was my little surprise for the day...was it shoes, a sweater...WRONG! it was this:
fun, I was pretty sure I married a lawyer, but he maybe considered a doctor after all!
I have to take these injections once a day in the lower hip/love handle area. See ladies, there is a use for these not so fun areas! I just can't stop thinking to myself. "how am I going to do this everyday, will I run out of room?"...probably not, I mean I have been working on that zone for some time now.
fun, I was pretty sure I married a lawyer, but he maybe considered a doctor after all!I have to take these injections once a day in the lower hip/love handle area. See ladies, there is a use for these not so fun areas! I just can't stop thinking to myself. "how am I going to do this everyday, will I run out of room?"...probably not, I mean I have been working on that zone for some time now.
I took a picture of how long the needle is! Ouch! I put it next to a standard pen so you could see how big the needle actually is. 
Will this baby ever know how much it was loved before it was even here? I will do what ever it takes to make sure I have done everything in my power to help keep this baby healthy. I go in again on Monday for blood work. (mainly for my sanity) Until then...
Will this baby ever know how much it was loved before it was even here? I will do what ever it takes to make sure I have done everything in my power to help keep this baby healthy. I go in again on Monday for blood work. (mainly for my sanity) Until then...
Mixed Results!
So yesterday Christian and I went to see Dr. Werlin. I was a little nervous and my dreams didn't help. It is so weird how your mind works. I was obviously obsessing about the appointment and all the things that could go wrong and low and behold, my dreams were just all those thoughts and images. Yuck!
Anyway, Christian and I were waiting in the room for Dr. Werlin. When he entered I immediately started praying again, like praying at that very moment would have made a difference, but lately that is all I do. I have a rosary that I carry around, and every time I have bad thought or a bad feeling I pray. Well, I guess I am trying to stay positive and just hoping for the best! Well, he came in and we started the ultrasound, and...well we saw the heartbeat! I was thrilled. I does however seem like I am having a diamond ring does it not?
Okay, so let me tell you what you are looking at...the black hole now (it got so big) the one that looks like a sideways tear drop that is my uterus. The almost prefect circle is what the call the yolk sac. This yolk sac contains the nutrients for turtle as it needs to grow. The "diamond" basically the ball on top of the ring, well that's the baby. You can't see the heartbeat on this or where the heart is, but we say it on the screen. It was nice too see.
On to the not so good news. I got a call later in the afternoon about my progesterone. Well, the levels dropped again! They went from 39 back to 19. Frick! (you all know what I really wanted to say)! Well, the nurse said, not to worry that my body is just not responding to the oral medications and we need to switch to injectables.
We went to the Dr.'s yesterday afternoon so Christian, or should I say Dr. Spaulding could learn to administer the injections every night. The needle itself is crazy long. He was really scared but took on the responsibility like a trooper. Needless to say, my upper hip area is going to be sore and bruised for awhile.
I am just hoping that this isn't a bad sign and that everything remains healthy with turtle! I have called the Dr. and asked for an "extra" visit with him this week, he doesn't think it's necessary I am sure, but right now I need to be positive but I need the reassurance to do so. I haven't talked to him much more about it and we will decide today the plan for these upcoming days. I don't think I can wait until Thurs with all this going on.
So, we are no where near out of the woods! Keep us in your prayers!
Anyway, Christian and I were waiting in the room for Dr. Werlin. When he entered I immediately started praying again, like praying at that very moment would have made a difference, but lately that is all I do. I have a rosary that I carry around, and every time I have bad thought or a bad feeling I pray. Well, I guess I am trying to stay positive and just hoping for the best! Well, he came in and we started the ultrasound, and...well we saw the heartbeat! I was thrilled. I does however seem like I am having a diamond ring does it not?
Okay, so let me tell you what you are looking at...the black hole now (it got so big) the one that looks like a sideways tear drop that is my uterus. The almost prefect circle is what the call the yolk sac. This yolk sac contains the nutrients for turtle as it needs to grow. The "diamond" basically the ball on top of the ring, well that's the baby. You can't see the heartbeat on this or where the heart is, but we say it on the screen. It was nice too see.
On to the not so good news. I got a call later in the afternoon about my progesterone. Well, the levels dropped again! They went from 39 back to 19. Frick! (you all know what I really wanted to say)! Well, the nurse said, not to worry that my body is just not responding to the oral medications and we need to switch to injectables.
We went to the Dr.'s yesterday afternoon so Christian, or should I say Dr. Spaulding could learn to administer the injections every night. The needle itself is crazy long. He was really scared but took on the responsibility like a trooper. Needless to say, my upper hip area is going to be sore and bruised for awhile.
I am just hoping that this isn't a bad sign and that everything remains healthy with turtle! I have called the Dr. and asked for an "extra" visit with him this week, he doesn't think it's necessary I am sure, but right now I need to be positive but I need the reassurance to do so. I haven't talked to him much more about it and we will decide today the plan for these upcoming days. I don't think I can wait until Thurs with all this going on.
So, we are no where near out of the woods! Keep us in your prayers!
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
A little nervous!
So today I couldn't stop thinking about tomorrows appointment and better yet ultrasound. Actually, I can't believe I made it to today. I broke down yesterday and called the Dr.'s office to ask about these little pains I have been feeling..they probably think I'm nuts. Well, the nurse called me back and said that they pains I am feeling are really normal and not to worry. Was I hoping she was going to tell me to come in for an ultrasound, ummm...maybe. But, I am glad I was able to hold out. Hopefully tomorrow we will be able to see little turtles heartbeat! I really hope so. This will be one more milestone to hit during this torturous 7 week wait. Remember, I was DYING during the 2 weeks wait, now imagine 6 weeks more. OMG, the thought. I don't even know how I got through the last week. I mean really, I have known that I am pregnant for what 11 days! This is going to be a long pregnancy. (hoping so at least).
I must say though that this pregnancy is a lot different than the last. Which, I am hoping is a good sign. For example, I feel like I am on a constant rocking boat, better yet for my fellow winos..like I have a constant hangover (you know that one that wants to make you lay back in bed until it goes away), and the fatigue! Holy cow, the fatigue is intense. Now, this could be heightened by my little friend progesterone but around noon everyday, I seriously need toothpicks to keep my eyes opened. All the other stuff is pretty standard, except the fact, that I am pretty sure I am growing into a Chia Pet. Who knew hormones could make you grow peach fuzz all over...I'm hoping it's just the lighting...but I think I need to come to terms with the reality of more hair.
I'm so nervous that things won't go well, I guess I just need to think positive. I mean, my body is meant to do this, right? Turtle is a touch little guy and will make it! I just have to believe.
Well, hopefully tomorrow I will upload the cute picture of turtle and hopefully well see the little flicker of a heartbeat!
I must say though that this pregnancy is a lot different than the last. Which, I am hoping is a good sign. For example, I feel like I am on a constant rocking boat, better yet for my fellow winos..like I have a constant hangover (you know that one that wants to make you lay back in bed until it goes away), and the fatigue! Holy cow, the fatigue is intense. Now, this could be heightened by my little friend progesterone but around noon everyday, I seriously need toothpicks to keep my eyes opened. All the other stuff is pretty standard, except the fact, that I am pretty sure I am growing into a Chia Pet. Who knew hormones could make you grow peach fuzz all over...I'm hoping it's just the lighting...but I think I need to come to terms with the reality of more hair.
I'm so nervous that things won't go well, I guess I just need to think positive. I mean, my body is meant to do this, right? Turtle is a touch little guy and will make it! I just have to believe.
Well, hopefully tomorrow I will upload the cute picture of turtle and hopefully well see the little flicker of a heartbeat!
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Should good news be told before 12 weeks?
So, here is the question of the day... After 1 year of trying, when is it too soon to tell your friends and family that you are with child?I have wanted to tell people that we are pregnant and will be expecting our first child in July. But, I'm only 5 weeks pregnant. There is still so much that could or could not happen, that is feels too soon to tell people that you are in fact pregnant. It almost seems cruel to not share the news. I mean today for example, I went to a friends baby shower. I hadn't told anyone there (outside of 1 or 2 people) that I was indeed pregnant, although many of them know that we were trying to get pregnant again. I knew they were looking at me feeling bad that I had to sit through yet another baby shower. I wanted to scream from the roof tops: "Don't worry you guys, I'm pregnant, you don't have to feel sorry for me anymore!".
But what if I did tell them all and something did go wrong? I mean what is worse, the damage control of having to tell all those people, and all the people they told that you are no longer pregnant or having to keep the news to yourself when all you want to do is yell at the top of your lungs "I'm pregnant". And then there is also those people far enough removed that don't realize you lost the baby and then ask you how your child is doing a year later. AWKWARD!
Ultimately, when it comes down to it all, there are just pros and cons to both. So I guess the real question is, do the pros outweigh the cons??
I have been struggling with this question for the last few days. Do I or don't I? ummm...So this is what I have come up with. I figured, if something did go wrong would it not be my friends and family I turned to for support? so why not let them know our news. I mean, we don't need to put out a news bulletin (although I wish I could) but to let those close to us know, how could that ever be bad? And really what is the "true" reason to not tell people? for me, it is the chance of jinxing it. Do I really believe that is possible? No, it is in gods hands not in whether or not I told people before the 12 week mark. So for now, I feel good about telling those around me of our little miracle and have just asked that they "mums the word"
So to all those little secret holders, keep us in your prayers.
But what if I did tell them all and something did go wrong? I mean what is worse, the damage control of having to tell all those people, and all the people they told that you are no longer pregnant or having to keep the news to yourself when all you want to do is yell at the top of your lungs "I'm pregnant". And then there is also those people far enough removed that don't realize you lost the baby and then ask you how your child is doing a year later. AWKWARD!
Ultimately, when it comes down to it all, there are just pros and cons to both. So I guess the real question is, do the pros outweigh the cons??
I have been struggling with this question for the last few days. Do I or don't I? ummm...So this is what I have come up with. I figured, if something did go wrong would it not be my friends and family I turned to for support? so why not let them know our news. I mean, we don't need to put out a news bulletin (although I wish I could) but to let those close to us know, how could that ever be bad? And really what is the "true" reason to not tell people? for me, it is the chance of jinxing it. Do I really believe that is possible? No, it is in gods hands not in whether or not I told people before the 12 week mark. So for now, I feel good about telling those around me of our little miracle and have just asked that they "mums the word"
So to all those little secret holders, keep us in your prayers.
Progesterone!
Okay, so on Thurs. I went in for my first ultra sound. To be honest, you really couldn't see much at all! We did get 2 things from Thurs. appointment though:
First: I got my progesterone levels tested again and my progesterone levels were at a 39! Hurrah!
Second: We got our very first look at our little turtle! Check out the Mick Jagger's lips (that is my uterual lining right in the middle) and that black hole, well guys, believe it or not that is it! (sorry, it came out very blurry!) So I guess we were wrong, there is one baby in there!
First: I got my progesterone levels tested again and my progesterone levels were at a 39! Hurrah!
Second: We got our very first look at our little turtle! Check out the Mick Jagger's lips (that is my uterual lining right in the middle) and that black hole, well guys, believe it or not that is it! (sorry, it came out very blurry!) So I guess we were wrong, there is one baby in there!
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