California Up in Smoke!

Well, today was another day full of smoke. We received a message from our company last night indicating that today we were to resume business as usual. Since I felt regenerated after yesterday, I went in the office early this am (I also knew I was super behind and that my work load was going to be intense!). I got out of my car, took one breath and realized I am going to have to run to my building, because breathing was not an option. I took one big breath and booked it to the door. I open the door, entered the building and boom! I was smacked in the face by smut! Good lord, this has to end. Then I thought to myself, it must be better upstairs, because this is not better than outside! (however, doesn't hot air rise?) Well, needless to say, upstairs was not any better. As I tried to muscle through the chaos, I received an email stating that wearing masks were mandatory. What, are you serious? Dr. Spaulding here I go I guess. Well they couldn't keep us there long because the air quality was progressively getting worse, so by 9.30am I was on my way home. Ummm, what to do?

So now I am back at home. Not that I don't have plenty to do, I just don't feel like doing anything. I am lazy! As far as symptoms, I am sorry to report that I have zero now. How is this possible? How could the little symptoms I had yesterday disappear today? No cramps at all, none. Breasts are not sore, I not any more tired than normal, skin looks the same, potty breaks have stopped their intensity. Where does that leave me?

What I did realize today though, is that I am okay with this not happening this month (although I would welcome it if it did). I guess winning some battles is okay for now, and one day we will have won the war. Persistence right.

Here's to the small victories that we have gained recently: Christian's testing came back good, the Glucophage reduced my testosterone levels, no cysts appeared on my ovaries, the Clomid helped produce at least 1 good follicle measuring over the size of 22mm and one smaller follicle at 18mm, the HCG trigger shot worked to induce ovulation, and my progesterone was higher than it need to be, and lastly, I was not given progesterone supplements! So although this month appears to be a bust (no pregnancy), at least it victorious on many battle fronts. Hopefully, things will continue to be positive and together Christian and I will not only win the battles but come out on top of this war of infertility.