Oh, what a difference a day makes...kinda!

Last night I went to dinner with a few girlfriends in substitution of wine night. It was really nice to talk and sip some wine and just relax. It was so needed. I actually left dinner feeling empowered and ready to take on the remaining 10 days of this dreaded 2 week wait. 6 days down, 10 to go. I could have handled anything. I was ready!

And let me report, that I successfully went to dinner with 2 fellow smokers, and didn’t smoke! I quit smoking a few weeks back, (although I was never a hard core smoker, it was really nice to have a cig with a drink and a drink with a cig), and have vowed to stay a “non-smoker.” But I had not been put to the test, and hanging with these two gal pals definitely put me to the test. And I passed! Hurrah! I will be the first to admit though, that the wine in my right hand sure didn’t taste the same without its companion in my left hand. It feels terrible to separate something that so obviously works so well together! But scarifies must be made. I’m grateful that I still have Pinot anything in my life! …at least for now J

I headed home from a great night and conducted my nightly rituals, washed my face, put on my PJ’s, rubbed my belly and whispered, swim little guys swim or dig little one dig (for those that don’t understand this reference, I’m referring to the embryo digging into my lining which is known as “implantation”). I know if Christian heard me he would think I lost my mind. Actually, after writing it out, I think maybe I have lost it a little.

Anyway, I went to bed. Around 4 am I woke feeling terrible. I wasn’t sure if I was going to pass out or be sick. Gross. So, I did what I could to fall asleep (although I never felt like I really did). This morning all I could think was “I wonder what that was about…did the embryo implant?” blaa blaa. Damn, back to thinking and over thinking everything and anything. “Can I smell those flowers at my desk more than I did the other day?” Yet another pregnancy symptom that I do or don’t have. This is complete madness! Good god, will this ever end.

Where is Pinot Grigo when I need her!

I’m back! I keep getting these little cramps. They hurt and I rub my belly and they seem to go away. Weird. Isn’t too early to experience PMS and the wonders of getting your period? What is going on? Not to worry, I’ll ask Dr. Google and see what he has to say…

Well, Dr. Google states that the pain can be caused by several things, recovery from the IUI procedure, ovaries shrinking in size, implantation J, or your period is preparing itself. So basically, back to the drawing board. Darn you Dr. Google.
So the cramping continues, it almost feels like little needles jabbing me in the lower abdonmen, OUCH! Now I’m tired, all this thinking has me pooped! I need a nap!